I work best under pressure

That’s what I keep telling myself at least. I haven’t felt like this since Uni. In fact, realistically since A-Levels. In a week’s time I will just have run my first full training day. The current planned attendance is 70 delegates. the day will start off with an hour long presentation, by me with some help from my Parental Unit. It will then lead to an hour long practical demonstration of the technology in the presentation. After this I get lunch and then a break as Dad talks to the delegates about library stuff I don’t understand, like funding and boroughs and other counilly words. After that the delegates which each spend an hour or so doing practical excercises which I have written specifically for this course. They will involves things like setting up a blog, following an RSS feed. sending a message to @stephenfry. Finally there will be a summary of the day, again given by me, followed by a Q&A (if anyone has any questions I haven’t been able to answer during the day).

The presentation is nearly finished, which is the basis and foundation of the course, but the rest is still very much in the planning stages. I still have 6 days to put my shit together, and I know the last bits can be done in a couple of evenings, or one full day, but between now and then I am also doing the Manchester Run, with insufficient training (just as I did last year, so pretty sure I’ll be ok) and doubt I will be in the mood for powerpoint afterwards. I remember at school I always used to leave all my homework until the last minute, doing everything imaginable to avoid doing it (thankfully there was no such thing as a blog when I did A-Levels or I wouldn’t have passed anything and would probably have four gold stars and an attitude by now) and it’s a habit I’ve never been able to break. I know that it will make things a lot easier in the long run if I get things done early, then I can relax and not worry myself half to death thinking about what I haven’t done. I know that there is less chance I’ll miss anything if it’s finished earlier so I can add to it later if need be. But despite knowing all this, I just can’t do it. I do work well under pressure, but whether I work better is doubtful, whatever the little red dude on  my shoulder keeps telling me. It’s just how I’ve always done it. I should probably address it and get myself more organised, but I know that even if I do, there will always be a little voice inside my head saying “yeah, but it works, you know?” and I’ll always inevitably say “Yeah, *sigh*, I guess I could build that snowspeeder again after all. And might as well put the trilogy on while I do. That homework’s not due for nearly a week”.

Once a slacker, always a slacker.